I’m not one for making new year resolutions at the start of January – I am guaranteed to break them by January 2nd! January is such a dull, dreary month and to be honest, after the Christmas we had (fish finger sandwiches for Christmas dinner, anyone?) I wanted to enjoy all the things I missed out on, so I have been happily eating chocolate, drinking wine (Dry January – Pah!), and basically making the start of the year a little more bearable.
But, even though I didn’t make any resolutions at the start of year I did start thinking about what I would like to do / plan and change in 2016, especially as this is quite a big year for me age wise – I’m turning 40 in just over a month (eek!). Perhaps not so surprisingly, many of my resolutions from last year have made it onto this years list – hell, lose weight has been on my list for the past four years!
If I was to ask myself why the same resolutions appear on the list year after year then I think my answer would be that I just wasn’t ready to make that particular change at that point in my life. Will it be any different this year? I can’t answer that for certain, but right now I feel very differently about myself than I have in years – I feel more comfortable in my own skin (even if it is getting a bit saggy in places), and like I’m starting to swim rather than just treading water.
Now that the kiddies are a bit older, and a bit more independent, I’m starting to feel like I’m able to reclaim a bit of my life back. I don’t think it’s a secret that I found the first few years of motherhood much more difficult than I thought it would be. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t get pregnant and think that motherhood was going to be a walk in the park, I knew it was going to be bloody hard (but oh, so rewarding at the same time) but it’s only recently that I feel like I’ve broken through the pnd wall that built up around me.
I can feel a spark within me that I haven’t felt in a long time and everything seems much more positive. I feel like I’m ready to make some changes, such as tackle those long running resolutions, and to generally make 2016 the best year yet for me, and the family.